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I was so happy when you smiled
Your smile breaks through the clouds of grey
Far from the sunny days that lie in sleep
Waiting with patience for the spring
when the flowers will bloom renewed again
Knowing there's more beyond the pain of today
Now that the scars from yesterday remain
You can go on living as much as your heart believes
You can't be born again, although you can change
Let's stay together, always |
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Today, I found out that someone who one of my best friends was very close to was killed in a car accident. Her and two other people were driving on a highway late last night and a drunk driver swerved into their lane and hit them head on. None of them survived. I know we hear about these kind of things everyday, between the wars, the martyrs, the car accidents, the work accidents, the companies that would kill us all to make a few extra dollars, but think about it for a few extra minutes. I never met this girl, but seeing the people who did made me really scared. I started to think about my best friends. What if I woke up and they were gone? What if I could never hang out with the people I love spending time with ever again? What if I could never talk to the people I love hearing ever again? What if I could never support them with their problems or talk with them about my own ever again? And it doesn't even matter if I didn't know them, I realize, because they were somebody's best friends.
they were somebody's children.
they were loved by some people and still loved by a lot of them. And for every day that they're gone, there will be people who are going to miss hugs, kisses, shoulders to cry on, laughter to share, smiles to see, or just plain time spent with them. Their lovers will never get to hold them close, wake up next to them, or kiss them on the forehead ever again. Their family will never have another picture all together. Life is so short, so you have to appreciate everyone close to you everyday! And please, please, be absolutely careful when driving or in any other position that could put someone's life in danger! You don't want to take these things away from their families, friends, and lovers. |
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I have not posted here in eighteen million years, I'm aware. Instead of getting everyone up to date, I'm just gonna post Alex's song meme. I'm not going to copy the instructions because I already clicked the post button. LOL. FIGURE IT OUT ;D 1. Boyfriend in a Coma -- Amanda Palmer. Honestly, if you didn't know that my first song was going to be Amanda Palmer, then you just don't know me at all. But anyway, I don't have an MP3 of this song on iTunes, and am forced to listen to it on her website. Thus I have no idea how many times I've listened to it since I discovered it a week ago. But I think it's on the upwards of fifty. But anyway, the lyrics to this song are BEAUTIFUL, and sad. And I love that throbbing piano, like a heartbeat. I don't really have anything special to say, but it's going to kill me because I could seriously do this for every song on WKAP and all the Dresden Dolls songs. But I won't. You'd get sick of me, but you love me anyway. ;D I CAN'T FIND THIS ONE EITHER ON IMEEM. FUCK IT I'M TI-RED. 2. Under Pressure -- Queen. I just looked at my Top 25 on iTunes, and this was the first one that caught my eye. I've been an 80s music geek for like four or five years now. Of all the 80s songs I know, I think this is my favorite. Plus the Best of Queen is like, one of the greatest albums of all time. The entire song is so orchestral and beautiful. Freddie Mercury and David Bowie together is the most wonderful thing ever. I wish I could have had their children (seriously.) And this song FUCKING SOARS. It goes up, down, up, down, fast, slow, fucking everything man. And honestly, every time I hear Vanilla Ice, I'm like "I love that song!!" thinking it's this song. I really have no good stories to tell, apologies. 3. Samson -- Regina Spektor. I can never pick a Regina song. I was going back and forth between "Reading Time with Pickle", "Oedipus", "Field Below", and bunches of other songs. But anyway, I felt I should pick this song since because of this song, and the Dolls's "Delilah", I wrote a short story last summer. Honestly this song is so sad, and I really do love biblical stories even though I'd be a sucky Christian (really I would, i love too much.) I have two versions of this song, from "Songs" and "Begin to Hope." I fell in love with the Songs one first, but I also love the BTH one. This song is so super sad and I really, really hope to see Regina live someday. Fuck, Regina can play the piano. I've got nothing to say about any of these. Wonder why? hmmm 4. Saline the Salt Lake Queen -- Rasputina. Rasputina was hard for me to pick too, but this song is fuckin' HARD CORE. I always see black crows and scary cat eyes in my head when I hear this song. These cellos are HEAVY, and they rock. This whole experience is making me realize that I really have no reason for liking the music I do. xD 5. Strange Wind -- POE. I have no idea what album this is from, and my iTunes count for this song is only three, but I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG STILL. It actually got me through some tough times about three years ago. No real story here (at least not one I care to explain), but fuck, listening to this song helped A LOT OF THINGS in my life. I think this is my favorite song of hers; her voice is definitely its best here. And these lyrics could pwn the soul of ANY other lyrics. Anyway, it's soft and sad, I love it. I think this is the best one I've written so far. xD BTW, fav line "A circle a jagged edge a cross, holding little bits of the truth / whatever i may be hiding i think that i could show it to you" NOT AVAILABLE ON IMEEM. SO SORRY. 6. Shalott -- Emilie Autumn. I may stop here. This meme is making me sleepy, wtf? Anyway, the fairytale lyrics are SO COOL. Ha, I love them. Plus I love Emilie's voice it's so pretty, yet anarchistic at the same time. I just listened to this entire song I still have no idea what to say about it. But I love it. NOT AVAILABLE EITHER. THE HELL? |
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This election season has totally sucked. Everything's been about the economy. Marsha, Marsha, Marsha! Whatever happened to concerns over women's health (which still definitely needs to be concerned for)?? About a month ago, in Madison's local newspaper, I read an article about how abortion was not the hot button issue this election that it was in the last election. It's been a given a backseat to (what else?) the economy. While economic stability is super important and all that shit, it seems like Joe the Plumber (aka, White Males) is more important to the American public than anyone else. This wouldn't suck so much, but not talking about abortions basically seems to mean not talking about women's health at all. Now, that already really sucks, but it especially sucks this election, because McCain and Palin together could create a very nightmareish and scary world for women in this country. Not only are they both extremely opposed to comprehensive sex education and abortion, but they also are opposed to birth control access and helping rape victims! Palin even made rape victims pay for their own rape kits, and McCain voted against legislation introduced by Joe Biden that would make sexual assault exams for rape victims free. They would also not support abortion rights for rape victims. This means that women who are forced into sex and become pregnant will also be forced into carrying that pregnancy to term as well. Not only that, but Clayton Williams, a man who once joked that rape was "inevitable" "like the weather," has raised more than $300,000 for McCain, whom has not sent a back a single penny of this money, nor denounced Williams and his "jokes." Probably the worst thing for me, though, is that this means that comprehensive sex ed. won't have a snowball's chance in hell for at least another four years. Comprehensive sex ed. provides high schoolers with correct and medically accurate information about contraception, STD and pregnancy prevention, heterosexuality and bisexuality and questioning sexualities, and everything else that abstinence-only sex education leaves out. Comprehensive sex ed. is statistically shown to reduce rates of teen pregnancy and STDs, yet McCain and Palin both are trying to keep it out of our schools, despite the fact that Palin's own daughter is pregnant. How many times does the 'this isn't working' stick have to beat her over the head for her to get it? So, yes, Joe the Plumber, your taxes are going to go up. Sucks to be you, but seriously, get the fuck over it. With Obama, your kids will have comprehensive sex ed in their schools; all the women you know won't be treated like shit if they get raped; and maybe, women will actually have (gasp!) access to good and affordable health care!!! Dedicated, with love, to all the women here and everywhere.
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The people may as well have been stone too. They were sad, gray and un-moving. Viktor felt as if the entire town was covered in a thick, desolate layer that covered everything: the people, buildings, and scenery. |
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Emotions are so much more complex than I usually ever see in a book or on TV. Things get worse; they get better; then they get worse again and better again and they drift around in that endless cycle until you either decide to run with it, or to cut it off. Most people ignore this balance and write in a straightforward kind of way: that has one way that it's going and doesn't take detours like real life. I just wanted to share some little-know song lyrics right now. I won't go through a big explanation as to where they come from, but anyone who cares enough can look it up. Splinter in my Heart It's kinda sad really.
Guess I'm the sort who'll linger.
When the credits roll
I still can't leave a picture.
The picture I hold in my heart. There's a road left to travel.
There's bridges left to burn
There's songs I haven't written
Lessons left to learn. There's reasons left to fight.
There's you to kiss good night.
So hold on.
Hold on tight. It makes me mad really.
Wish I could blame a twister
Or a hurricane
Or my pesky sister
Wish I could blame away this feeling in my heart. |
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SO WE'RE PLAYING :D 1. Pick your top 10 favorite movies. 2. Go to IMDb and look up 3 official plot keywords for each. 3. List them here and have your friends guess the movie. ((IN NO PARTICULAR ORER...)) 1. Mall Scene / Running / Stepmother Stepdaughter Relationship
2. Bleeding to Death / Abstinence / Gynecological Exam
3. Suburbs / Teen Angst / Junior High School
4. Lovers Reunited / WWII / Place Name in Title
5. Taxicab / Vietnam Veteran / Multiple Story Line
6. Self Sacrifice / Magical / Ocean
7. 1600s / Raccoon / Hummingbird
8. Mountains / Fireworks / Female Soldier
9. Parallel World / Bathhouse / Cult Cartoon
10. Talking Animal / Tastes Like Chicken Joke / Tragic Incident |
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Opening Credits: My Alcholic Friends -- Dresden Dolls
First Day At School: I Just Make Faces -- World/Inferno Friendship Society
Falling In Love: Watashi Tachi Ni Narakute -- Sailor Moon SuperS
Shower Scene: First Orgasm -- Dresden Dolls... xDD
Fight Song: Choose me for Chamion -- Rasputina
Breaking Up: Cavalier Eternal -- Against Me!
Prom: I've Just Seen a Face -- The Beatles
Life's OK: Less Talk More Rokk -- Freezepop
Mental Breakdown: Wild -- Poe
Driving: On the Radio -- Regina Spektor
Sex Scene: We Like to Party -- Venga Boys
Flashback: Pictures of You -- The Cure
Getting Back Together: Could've Gone Mad -- Poe
Wedding: Honey and the Moon -- Joseph Arthur
Birth of Child: Braille -- Regina Spektor
Final Battle: Sailor Star Song -- Sailor Moon
Funeral Song: Turn Back TIme -- Neon Genesis Evangelion
End Credits: Banana Phone (Hard Rock Version) -- Raffi |
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*January 1. Did you have a new year's resolution this past year? No I didn't. :)
2. Who kissed you at midnight? Trevor.
3. Where were you at 12:00? Trevor's
4. Do you like hot chocolate? FUCK YEEEAH
5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? I wish D:
6. Most memorable moment of January? Getting our cars egged at D's birthday. That's fun. xD *February 1. Who was your valentine in 2007? Trevor :D
2. What did your valentine get you? A necklace :)
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? SHYEAH
4. Stand out event of February: Aw man... I don't even know. xD *March 1. Are you Irish? NUP
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? ... NO
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2007? NOTHING
4. Stand out activity from March: WELL... idk stfu xP *April 1. Do you like the rain? KINDA
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? No I don't think so. xD
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter? YEAH
5. Why April rocked: My sister's birthday + Easter + A ton of other fun shit :D *May 1. What's your favorite kind of flower? OH... I don't know xD
2. Do you like the spring? YEP
3. What's the best part of May? ... My AP Psych test?? xD
4. What was the most important part of May? LOL IDK. My half birthday?? *June 1. What year did/do you graduate from school? THIS ONE
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? YES. HEALTH CAREER CAMP FTW.
3. How did you celebrate graduation? I did not :D
4. Best part of June: HEALTH CAREER CAMP WAS THE FOO SHIZ MAN *July 1. What did you do on the 4th of July? Watched a few fireworks at my friend's house OH and I SWEAR like, one like, WHIZZED RIGHT PAST MY FUCKING FACE. But that's it :D
2. Do you go on any vacations during this month? FUCK YEAH. DEBATE CAMP SON.
3. What defines July to you? Camp. Since that's basically all I did xD
4. What made July great? I cried alot. Missing people. Seeing people. That shit. *August 1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? God I just don't remember xD I don't think so D:
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '07? EVERYTHING. RANDOM NIGHTS AT PERKINS. CAMPS. SEEING FRIENDS. EVERYTHING.
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer? ONCE. At camp. Foo shiz.
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? NO
5. Define August in 5 words or less: YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST. *September 1. Did you attend school/college in '07? ... YES DAMNIT.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? Mr. Yunk. HE LOVES REGINA SPEKTOR EVEN MAN
3. Do you like fall better than summer? ...NO
4. Most memorable part of September? ... SCHOOL AND COLLEGE APPS AND FUCKING GOD
*October 1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? UMM My friend was Where's Waldo, and the girl at the coffee shop was Sailor Mercury. xD
2. What's your favorite candy? ANYTHING. FUCKING GOD.
3. What did you dress up like this year? NOTHING. But I still went :D
4. Best part of October? TRICK OR TREATING FOO SHIZ. PLUS TREVOR'S BDAY :D *November 1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving? MIEN
2. Do you like stuffing? Yeah... but yeah :D
3. What are you thankful for? My friends :D
4. What stands out the most about November? MY BIRTHDAY!!! IT WAS THE SHIT!!! ;D BEST. PARTY. EVER. *December 1. Do you celebrate christmas? YEAH
2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? NO MAN
3. What do you want this year for christmas? I didn't really want anything. I just wanna go to college in fall, and see Alex over the summer :D
4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? UMM... I don't remember, so I'll say that build-a-bear I got for Xmas last year :D
5. Do you like cold weather? ... NO
6. What are you waiting for the most for this December? Nothing. It's over. xD |
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Palindromes. People never really do change. |
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It's my birthday ;D I'm 18! YAY REJOICE :D |
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I have a lonely, lonely heart. |
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I miss you. And I don't even have enough courage to tell you this, but I think I'm always going to love you. But... Being in love with me hurts you so much, I know that. I'm sorry. |
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I'm going to be the Lacrymosa. I'm finally going to break my fear of people. I'm going to get a new job. I'm going to change my hair color. When I turn 18, I'm going to get my piercings I've always wanted. And I'm going to do all the beautiful things I've always wanted to do. And someday; I'm going to be that person I really want to be. |
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Best. Survey. Ever. Also, just do this if you want to. 8D FORGET TAGS. 1. List 5 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
2. Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them. (5 - 1, 1 is the hottest.)
3. Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
4. Supply photos for said people.
5. Tag five people! 5.Mark Danielewski
*sigh* Looks like I'm with Alex on this and I'm going to do one boy then a bunch of girls. HOWEVER that's not as weird as the fact that if all these people were in a room, I'd do him then two people later, do his sister. BUT STILL...
I can't pinpoint the exact moment in which I fell in love with Mark. <3 Was it the first time I read "House of Leaves" or "Only Revolutions"? Was it hearing his sexy voice on POE's "Hey Pretty Drive-by Remix" (Which REALLY REALLY turned me on)? I don't know. I just know that I want on him. 4.Regina Spektor
God, just look at this picture. She totally wants me. (But who wouldn't? <3)
The first song I ever heard of Regina's was "Fidelity". But the song that totally hooked me on her music was "Consequence of Sounds". She's got the SUPER-SEXIEST VOICE and GOD just look at those lips. I dream about those lips. <3 Her eyelashes really turned me on to. D: I mean... I love the way they curve. I wish mine did that. D: 3.Kelly
Oh, I forgot this one's a guy too. XD AND YES I WOULD DO A DRAG QUEEN ;D
Yeah... Amanda's in there too... but this pic is just SO DAMN HOT. D: (I hope this pic worked btw, sry if it didn't). And God... I literally just heard of Kelly about a week ago, from her "Shoes" song... but I'd stll do her. In a second. I'd make out with anyone who made out with Amanda Palmer, because then, I'd have TECHNICALLY made out with her (If it works for sexaul partners, it works for making out, FUCK YOU ABSTINENCE-ONLY SEX ED). I love those glasses... she'd have to keep them on during sex. <3 And the leg warmerrrss.... ooooh. SEXY <3 Can you imagine doing it with FUCKING KELLY? I mean like, she's fucking like "WHO'S YOUR DADDY?? WHO'S YOUUURRR DADDDEEEEE!!! THOSE SHOES ARE MINE BETCH!!!!" X"D O M F G. I love her. D: 2.POE
I can't wait 'til the day when I can see this bitch in concert. Stupid contracts. D:
POE's Haunted Album is the best album ever. Seriously. I love her so much. D: I mean, who cares if she's not a virgin anymore? I'd still tap that. <3 The first song I ever heard from POE was "Amazed". Cut to like a year later, I'm a total fangirl and I don't think a day goes by when I don't listen to her. And her voice turns me on SO MUCH. 1.Amanda Palmer
Can I just tell you guys that this was like the most difficulty I've ever had picking a picture? ;.;!!! I mean... there were just SO MANY SEXY ONES... and I was only looking at her Myspace photo collection. D: But GOD... JUST... GOD... She's SO DAMN HOT. I mean like... sex with her... !! AMAZING. Anyone who's ever made out with Amanda Palmer is so damn lucky... but ANYWAYS, HOW did I get hooked to Amanda Palmer? Two songs got me addicted to her -- "Coin-Operated Boy" & "Shores of California". "Ampersand" is not my all time favorite song. I mean, but those first two songs, they just... they gave me the sexual expression that I've been dying to hear in music. 6.6;; Amanda just articulates herself so well and music, and I *LOVE* the fact that her songs are very sexual, despite the taboo. <3 I'd fuck her at any given moment. Name any time or place. ;D |
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"Comment and I'll give you a letter. In your journal, list 10 of your favourite songs that begin with that letter." My letter is S. For sexy. 1. "Shores of California" -- The Dresden Dolls. Would you expect anything else from me? <3
2. "Strange Wind" -- POE. One of the most BEAUTIFUL songs ever! I mean... the lyrics here and her voice just seriously BLOW ME AWAY <3
3. "Someone To Die For" -- Jimmy Gnecco. This might be my favorite love song of all time. Really. It makes me cry almost everytime I listen to it. ;.;
4. "Super Trouper" -- ABBA.
5. "Shoes" -- Kelly. FUCK YES BETCH. 8D
6. "Safety Dance" -- Men Without Hats. I might kill myself if I didn't include this song. XD It's a perfect example of what makes 80's music own your soul. <3
7. "Simple and Clean" -- Utada Hikaru. This song brings back some bad memories for me... it helped me out of a hard time, let's say. 6.6;; When I listen to it, I feel so vulnerable, yet strong as well...
8. "So Long to the Circus" -- World/Inferno Friendship Society.
9. "Sous le ciel de Paris" -- Edith Piaf. This song is so beautiful. 6.6;; I wish I had subtitles to her biographical movie. -.-;;
10. "Sailor Star Song" -- from Sailor Moon. XD I *LOVE* this song!!! <3 and the Sailor Stars season pwns my soul. <3 That's it! =O |
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Alex.
I think I can safely say that, besides Savannah, I've known you longer than anyone here. And even though I haven't always done a good job of keeping in touch, you're still my friend. You're still my best friend. And I still love you, more than anything. And you know what?
You're not dead yet.
And she can't kill you. Never. She is nothing. She's an image. Nothing but a fucking image. And you know what?
You'll be okay.
Because you're my little sister and I love you. And no matter what, you have that love.
And she can't take that away from you. |
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